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10.16.21Prayer Request Updates: Angela Walker & Bill Turner
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10.15.21Influential Albums: 519-525
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10.09.21Updated on Three Prayer Requests from Last Week
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10.08.21Influential Albums: 512-518
10.08.21What's on the Never, but Then Again Before CD?
10.04.21This Week's News Bulletin
10.03.21Important Prayer Requests from Three Fans
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10.02.21The Stories Behind the Songs on Our 16th Single
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09.30.21More Info on the Upcoming ApologetiX CD
09.28.21New Single: 80's Solo Superstars
09.25.21Next CD Coming Next Month
09.25.21Influential Albums: 498-504
09.25.21New USB Flash Drives Include New CD & Single
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09.17.21Urgent Prayer Request for Bill Turner
09.17.21From a Native American ApX Fan in Montana
09.17.21Influential Albums: 491-497
09.17.21The Stories Behind the Songs on Our 15th Single
09.15.21New Single: 80's One-Hit Wonders (Almost)
09.12.21How to Get the New ApX Digital Interactive Songbook
09.12.21Clues for 2021 Single #15
09.12.21Influential Albums: 484-490
09.07.21This Week's News Bulletin
09.04.21Super Sentiments from 16 States & Saskatchewan
09.04.21Another Praise Report from Darnell Cline
09.04.21No Single This Wkd: Here's Why & What's in the Works
09.04.21Influential Albums: 477-483
08.27.21The Stories Behind the Songs on Our 14th Single
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08.24.21New Single: 2 from 1986
08.22.21New CD BOGO Ends Wednesday
08.22.21Big Bunch o' Books: What J.'s Been Reading Lately
08.20.21Influential Albums: 463-469
08.16.21This Week's News Bulletin
08.14.21Influential Albums: 456-462
08.14.21The Stories Behind the Songs on Our 13th Single
08.10.21New Single: 2 Top 10 Hits from 1985
08.07.21Rich Gets Quick: Fastest ApX Member to 100 Songs
08.07.21Influential Albums: 449-455
08.07.21New CD in Stock: Buy 1, Get 1 of 33 CDs Free
08.02.21This Week's News Bulletin
07.30.21More Prayer Needed for Darnell Cline
07.30.21The Stories Behind the Songs on Our 12th Single
07.30.21Influential Albums: 442-448
07.27.21New Single: More Mid-80's Music
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07.22.21This Week's News Bulletin
07.17.21The Stories Behind the Songs on Our 11th Single
07.16.21Father of the Bride (and Father of the Bride 2)
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07.12.21New 80's Single: #1 Hit and a One-Hit Wonder
07.10.21Darnell Cline: Encouragement from Other ApX Fans
07.10.21Update on Last Week's Appeal Letter
07.10.21Get Ready for Our 62nd CD
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07.10.21Influential Albums: 421-427
07.08.21Clues for 2021 Single #11
07.05.21This Week's News Bulletin
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06.26.21Clues for 2021 Single #10
06.25.21Influential Albums: 407-413
06.18.21New Prayer Update on Darnell Cline
06.18.21Influential Albums: 400-406
06.18.21The Stories Behind the Songs on Our Ninth Single
06.14.21New Single: '83 & '86
06.11.21Fan Will Match Donations Through Monday
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06.04.21Prayer Update on Darnell & Sonja Cline
06.04.21The Stories Behind the Songs on Our Eighth Single
06.04.21Influential Albums: 386-392
06.04.21New Single: '83 & '85
05.29.21Influential Albums: 379-385
05.24.21This Week's News Bulletin
05.21.21Influential Albums: 365-378
05.20.21The Stories Behind the Songs on Our Seventh Single
05.18.21New Single: More from '84
05.07.21This Week's ApX Radio Show: Mother's Day
05.07.21New Single: '85 & '86
05.07.21Influential Albums: 351-364
05.06.21The Stories Behind the Songs on Our Sixth Single
04.28.21Bible-in-One Year Starts Today
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04.23.21Influential Albums: Wk 50

An Open Letter from ApX Alum Keyboardist CVB
Thu., Feb. 20. 2020 4:54pm EST

ApologetiX alum keyboardist Chris VonBartheld asked us if he could share some thoughts with you in the newsletter. Here's what he had to say:

An open letter to the ApX fandom

Yes, it's been a while, and CVB is very much still alive and well. "Alive and well" -- I never thought about what that phrase actually means and how so casually we say it.

If you know me, then you know that I went through a lot of personal trauma in 2019. I am happy to say that I was able to come out the other side. However, it was touch and go there for a little while. And that is what I want to talk with you about.

You see, I will be the first to admit that I never thought depression was a real thing. I come from the school of just pick yourself up and move on. Last year, I shut down. I don't mean I slowed down, I mean that because of everything that I was going through, I shut down.

Now, as it turns out, I had been suffering from depression since I was a child and just didn't know about it. Why would I ? Depression, anxiety -- they didn't even exist back when I was a kid.

Thanks to friends, doctors, pastors, and a special shout-out to J. Jackson and Eve Tanner (Jimmy's wife), I was able to pick myself up, at least enough to get back in the fight. J. told me that one day this will make a great testimony. At the time, I didn't want to hear that, but recently God put it on my heart to write this to you.

We as Christians and the Church in general have to change our views on the way we deal with depression, anxiety, etc. We need to learn that just because we have God doesn't mean we don't need doctors or the medication they provide.

Now, don't get me wrong; I don't like medications in general, and I understand the need and all the concerns. But only speaking for myself, the medications that were prescribed for me helped me get to a state of even so I could stand up and get the help I needed.

Believe me, I was curled up like a ball in a chair or in bed and couldn't move, didn't want to, and didn't see any point in it. It gets so bad that you start wondering why alive is a better choice, and that's the truth. I was there. I started thinking about why am I still here, what's the point? So yes, I had suicidal thoughts. Deep down I'm just not that guy.

I don't know where any of you are at. I just want to say that if you have any of these issues you need to reach out to someone. It was hard for me to do it, but I had too. You have to just get past the stigma and embarrassment and say I need help.

Maybe you can't go to family or friends for whatever reason. But find someone. Hey I'll put my email at the bottom, email me. I and everyone would much rather deal with you saying you need help, rather than finding out after it's too late.

I have a new respect for mental illness and I will spend time and effort talking about it. Looking back, I realize I have lost many friends over time that I could have been a much better friend to. So from now on I will.

Doctors, friends and pastors can and will help, but get under the blood, open up the Bible, and ask Jesus for help. He is listening, even if you don't know it.

But, hey, what do I know? That's just the view from where I sit.

CVB
kosmicjustice@gmail.com