More Memories of CVB from His Wife
Sat., Dec. 11. 2021 1:20pm EST
Here are more memories of Chris VonBartheld (CVB) from his wife, Brandi (BVB):
"He had arrived in South Carolina with bad pneumonia, and his immune system was not well, and he got COVID on top of it. After 18 days in hospital and four days on a vent (he did get stable, but then Saturday he crashed), he could not pull through.
"My heart broke the entire time, because I was not able to be with him in the room a lot, because I had gotten COVID from taking care of him at home and was in a hospital room downstairs from him for about four to five days.
"He would say he missed me so much and that he felt alone. I would do my best to reassure him, but he was terrified of COVID because of all the people we lost this year to it.
"Chris was my best friend, and it's very hard not getting to talk to him. We never went even hours not talking to one another for the entire time we knew each other. He always had a way of making me laugh and we never took time for granted, and our fights were very short lived.
"My time with him was literally the best in my whole life, and my brain cannot fathom why God would give me someone so perfect for me only to then take him from me. I however am not mad at God, just don't understand. Part of me thinks he is just away and will be home any minute and then the reality that I won't ever see him (until heaven) kicks in and my heart sinks.
"He was the smartest man I knew, and our conversations were like no other. His heart was 100,000 times bigger than he wanted anyone to ever know, and I am crushed to lose him. I am also sad he didn't get to start this new life in South Carolina with me like we had planned — we planned so many things to do and see.
"He already had some friends he knew lining up gigs for here to see how it all worked. His worship had reached new levels, and he was so at peace doing worship again with small coffee shops. I waited my entire life for him, and God gave me three things to know that I know, and Chris was all of them. I miss him greatly today, and I don't even know how our anniversary will hit me.
"I appreciate you all so much, please know that. I have really no words to describe how my heart feels. He left a giant hole (that I know Jesus will fill), but he was one of a kind and so perfect for me. I am happy he is with Jesus, but my heart aches for just one more text or call or to hear his voice again. I am so glad I did millions of videos of him."
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